It’s been a long way for me to rebirth. Since my last post about Happiness, how to measure it when you’re under lots of stress, personal changes and master the art of balance within emptiness, I’m now feeling free to write again.
Since mid-September up to now I’ve been experiencing major changes in my whole path. Today I feel fulfilment and grace. And this wasn’t easy at all, many obstacles throughout the way, moments I thought I was going to burst into tears and just wanted to leave it all behind. Anyway, life has made me stronger than what I thought I was capable of. And now, not only I feel free to write, I’m also happy to do it.
After a long-term relationship that was already broken for longer than 2 years, I finally took the decision to move forward. To run into the emptiness of not knowing how it was going to be, being a single mom living abroad without family or resources, trusting the process of growing up and accepting life as it comes.
In this sense, I know there’s much still to come, and indeed time can heal all our wounds, but it is up to us how we master resilience when all we want is to step back.
It’s been a month ago I was telling you about the last project I’ve got myself into. The #AugustBreak2014, project from Susannah Conway, started quite good I must say. Until the middle of the month August I felt happy to be participating with my Instagram and Twitter accounts, I even posted some pics on my Facebook profile as well.
Then later, I came back from a short week holidays in Brussels and life here turned out to be much more difficult than what it already was. And to tell the truth, I’ve started to lose feet in it.. Feeling more and more lonely and unsure on how was I going to continue living in this tiresome situation without a clear end in sight?
Hi all, after my last post and almost turning the famous and fabulous 40’s, I now want to tell you about a new project I will be joining together called #AugustBreak2014.
What’s all this about? Well, remember last year I joined The Blog Lovin’ Tour from the book ‘The Declaration of You’ (from the authors: Michelle Ward and Jessica Swift)? During a whole month I was participating together with other bloggers all around the world with posts about every chapter/subject from their awesome book. And it was such a great thing to do! I have enjoyed every minute from that project, discovered lots of great blogs (such as this from Susannah Conway, creator of the AugustBreak2014 project), found a lot more about my creative self and.. many new readers started to get to know me. Was a great experience!
Now it will be a bit more different, because in this case Susannah thought about a photo project. So, every day from 1st to 31st August people all over the world will be posting pics via Instagram about certain subjects Susannah chose. I’m regularly on Instagram posting pics about my kids but also about other interesting or especial things or moments that catch my attention. I love the idea of being posting pics with a previous idea and.. Also being part of something much much bigger.
So, in behalf of this new project on the go I will be posting pics on my Instagram account (this a private account but I will be posting with the hashtag #AugustBreak2014) and automatically on my Twitter account as part of this. It’s the perfect way to start this incredible summer time and also celebrating my coming birthday in full bloom. So, I say, keep tuned and expect more posts with pics from my blog.
If you would also like to join Susannah with this amazing creative project, you can still do it clicking on this link. Have fun, enjoy, be present, smile and love.
Here is the list of themas Susannah chose, it looks great! I can’t wait to start right now! Enjoy it!
Summer is here to stay! See you soon!
Recently I’ve been toying with this crazy idea about leaving it all behind. Let myself explain it better.. It’s much easier said than done. When it comes to ‘leave it all behind’ this image of running away from everything what’s harming my life is the first thing it comes to my mind. But when I look around and I see how the world evolves and all the beautiful and important things my world is made of, and then I know it’s not that easy to be done. And, also, I’m not so sure that could bring any relief to the situation itself. There’s had to be another way.
Anyway, I’m stuck between my own thoughts of leaving and letting go. At this present moment everything around me seems like too much to handle. I’m broken, loveless, living in a desperate situation; nothing seems to be good enough. But wait.. There’s much more than that. I have two beautiful kids, great friends, many talents to develop and for sure much more! It is an internal feeling that nothing lasts forever.
I’ve realized lately that it’s been two months ago since my last post. Quite a lot of time for a real blog, I must say.. But, like I also said it other times, I’m not always in the mood for writing in English. Anyway, I’ve been going through quite a lot of stuff the last months, and now it was time to share some of it with you here.
The title for this post has to do, of course, with the great jewel of literature which Lewis Carroll wrote, about the adventures of little Alice.
I feel much as her many times. It seems to me little Alice was a dreamy and sensitive girl who enjoyed much about her own private world. The same I was when a young.
Recently I’ve been going through many changes in my life. Although I still don’t have a job and also didn’t move out yet (waiting for that big moment to come soon!). But I published my first book, gave some presentations in different cities here in Holland, being working on my own path step by step. Sometimes it looks like a poor start, but I know I’m on the right path.
The last weeks have been really busy back here in my small world. At this moment new projects coming my own way, new insights about love, friendship, work, dreams, children and just the rough everyday’s life. That’s what matters after all. Yours everyday’s life, what you put in your head since the moment you wake up to the moment you go back to horizontal position and (try to) sleep.
Some weeks ago sleeping was everything what I was thinking about. Yes, don’t take me wrong, sleeping like forgetting and letting go.
Lately I’m in a poor mood for writing. It has been weeks, almost months since I came up with new ideas, new thoughts to pour down into this blog.
As a writer & blogger, the way I like to call myself, I feel the urgency of writing almost 24 hours a day. But lately, life has been unfolding into deep waves of solitude and I’m longing for quietness more and more.
Today the day I decide to write again for you out there, reaching out my hands in an attempt to fulfil my loneliness. Keeping track of what makes me feel alive. Writing. As pure as it is. Writing, because my words can stay hollow in the deepest seas but they’re still here to end my suffering.
I’m happy to be back here again. It took me a long while to unfold my need to be writing again. I’ve been learning to master the art of (dis)connection and at the same time, proving myself that art was not mere an object of my passion. I’ve been under much stress, that’s true. And the fact that I feel lonely and full of energy has made me think twice how was I going to continue with my writing. Many things are happening at the same time, life evolves in mysterious ways and sometimes what we think normal isn’t like that anymore. Nothing wrong with that. There aren’t absolutes. We tend to think we are on the right path, and the following moment fall into emptiness without warning. And that’s fine. Although we may be not prepared for it.
Let’s see.. In the past months I’ve realized my writing hasn’t improved much. I’ve been too much involved with myself, my own visions of life, changing from one subject to the other. Keeping my head among the clouds, walking all the time on the same circle. In that sense I don’t see much improvement. There has been no reality check after all, no art.
Hello and welcome back to my long forgotten blog. It’s been really a long time since I wrote for the last time in English. And it’s a pity, I know, with so many people who were reading it in the first place, and also many of my friends and acquaintances who can’t read Spanish.. because, of course, I continued writing in Spanish in these last two months.
Reconnecting with you out there
Two months ago I was heading towards Buenos Aires, Argentina, my hometown and country. As many of you have been reading the last months, I was going under much stress at home, not only because of the lack of job, also the personal issues I’ve been trying to master on my own.
So, it was such a relief to have the opportunity to board a plane and go away for some time. It was really useful. And necessary.
But here I am, back to basics. I’ve been already for some time toying with the idea of writing again here for you. Why did I take my time? I sort of promised to write an article about the whole trip. I even thought to include all the juicy details about how low budget possible that was to be done in such a beautiful city as Buenos Aires.
I said I wasn’t sure to be back here, but now that my suitcases are almost done and prepared for the big day I thought to drop by and say hello.
Not a just plain hello, but some things I wanted to tell.
In my last post I was telling you how life was since I didn’t have any FB action. And indeed, although it was a bit weird not to be part of it, it was ok.
Well, then, this last 22 October I decided to reactivate the account. I realized now that it had been 2 months, and that looked like an ok time to say hello again.
I was having this odd feeling that life was happening somewhere else than where I was. Almost everything seems to be happening on FB nowadays. Constantly we’re shown to see almost all companies and brands having their own FB page, parties are thrown up, people exchanging messages and important data rather than sending an email, or giving a call. Not to mention the fact that it can get even worse, not seeing each other’s faces personally.
I was having this awful idea of not belonging to anywhere anymore. And for that reason and because now I’m travelling back to homeland Argentina, thought the time was ripe to be joining this boat.